Far Away

1 semester passed..and once again I didn't do well in my study..through the whole semester I quite far from God...Yes! I've served..but only through action not inside of me..I'm empty...

As compare to my 3rd semester I always spare my time to be with God alone by reading Bible, rosary but last semester I didn't even opened my Bible when someone sent me verses..and i didn't remember when the last time I've done rosary alone..

Well, I've try my best in my final exam last semester..all that I can gain is 2.05..but it's ok..at least I can stay and will continue to serve for 3 semester ahead.. I hope I will come closer to God and can study well..with God will.. amen..

So tired..

Oh No!..I'm really tired.. I need my rest..practical training is so tiring...Walked for 20 mins to ladang, roll call, work for less than 1 hours and then sat down, talked, loiter, gossiping..past 10.30 went back to hostel..then by 2pm went to ladang again but doing nothing..such a waste..

I wish I can relax and enjoy my 1 month holiday, but I can't..hrmmm...sakit ati..one more week to go..I hope that I can stand it..huh.. tomorrow i go back home..I'm totally tired to be here..I need my rest at home..I miss mum, home, room, food, fresh air, cousins, bicycle and friends..

...Secret Admirer...

For the first time I want to use Malay in my blog..can I?? But i didn't use to it..hehe..So i will only mix it..well just simple. I actually don't know what I want to write..haha : D ..

Seriously I didn't expect i will have a lot of secret admirer..haha..lol..I never realize it till my roomates told me about it..at first I thought that they lied..but it's the truth...and a brutal SujaNe will become shy sujaNe..haha..

Untung orang nangga ku malu,..haha..it's hard for people to see my shy face..bluekk!! And when I thought bout it i will get goosebumps..haha..eww..

Want to know who are my secret admirers???...No..i will just keep it myself.. Because I can't be with them..biarlah terus jadi secret admirer..hehe..kejam2..

It's hard for me to accept someone new in my heart..my heart was locked..can someone who hold the right key opened it?? But who hold the right ke??..jeng..jeng..jeng..ne boleh padah..sebab ku sendiri x tau.. owh please la..jangan nak seksa jiwa dan raga ku gk..I'm begging you..mun suka padah suka..haha! Wah mok tmbh gk SC baru..haha..

Apa-apa pun..I just pray for the best..coz only God that know who's the right one for me..

I didn't think it was love, I told myself it wasn’t love
I deceived myself, but my heart kept calling your name

I take one step towards you, push you one step away

Each time, you grow in my heart

I must be loving you this much, must be waiting for you this much

Even though it hurts so much, my heart can’t seem to let you go

I think there must be just one love, I don’t think my heart will change

The love that I’ve kept only for you, I can now finally tell you

Your warm eyes, Your warm love

Flying away farther, but you are still growing up in my heart.

I must be loving you this much, must be waiting for you this much

Even though it hurts so much, my heart can’t seem to let you go

I think there must be just one love, I don’t think my heart will change

The love that I’ve kept only for you, I can now finally tell you

I love you

Sometimes love, at times tears

Even though it’s hard, I love you, I love you

I only need you by my side

I must still be loving you, I must still be waiting for you

My brain might be fooled, but my heart can’t be fooled

I think there must be just one love, I don’t think my heart will change

The love that I’ve kept only for you, I can now finally tell you

I love you